Love will come to us if we will let it in

To be loved is a gift beyond all others. The universe is entirely about love. Love is the heartbeat of life. I was blessed to be loved in a way that made me feel special, made me feel as a man needs to feel, made me feel assured and confident in her dedication to me as the most important person in her life. And, I loved her in the same way. She was my everything. I delighted in acts of kindness and gifts of grace and goodness to her every day. Sometimes a wink across the room, a call to her for lunch, easing her worry about some little thing, encouraging her to wear the red dress, reminding her how beautiful she was then and now. Verbal flowers, a gentle kiss, spooning in bed, and always putting her first before everyone and everything. This depth of love and intimacy didn't come overnight. Love takes time to learn about each other, develop trust, find common ground, make little sacrifices for each other, learn each others dreams, be patient with each other. Forgiveness is the gift of the grace of an open minded, open heart and putting her well being first, above all others including self. I was honored to adore her. When one knows the depth of love possible it is not difficult to dream that it may come around the next corner or bend in the road someday. Be open hearted to love. And be ready to be loved. That was then, and then I lost her. Lost her to sickness. Loved her in health and then in the reality of sickness. Dedicated myself to her during those difficult days. And then she was gone. I was alone. I accepted that I would probably never have that kind of love again, that depth of intimacy, that closeness that beauty of kindness. And yet, it came to me again. A beautiful woman. A brilliant, kind and giving woman who had the same grace of goodness, kindness and selfless attitude. Good fortunate? Providence? Destiny? I like to think that we each have angels waiting in the wings to bestow love upon us. We must be open to the possibility of love. Love is all around us waiting to discover us, if we are willing and open to the beauty of its presence in us and in others around us.